Everyone has those people in their lives that keep them stabilized. Those rocks in the middle of the ocean that you cling to when your life is spiraling out of control. The ones that save you from drowning.
I didn't really do anything today. Today is Saturday. The one day that I have to do nothing. After surviving this week of school I realize my course load is quite a handful I don't have any doubts in my mind that I won't be able to handle it. But it's just a lot. So I'm taking full advantage of being able to lie in bed all day and do nothing. So since I don't really have any funny stories today I want to talk about the people in my life that keep me sane.
First and foremost I'd have to mention my parents. They may not do very much for my sanity but they do take care of me. Which indirectly keeps me sane because having the important things in my life taken care of gives me peace and the level head I need to continue with my life and my everyday tasks. I'd have to say my mom is my emotional support. My dad doesn't really do well with emotions and crying and being upset. So my mother kind of steps up to the plate and fills that role in my life as my shoulder to cry on. When something bad has happened to me or someone makes me upset or if I want to share something happy in my life, no matter how menial or silly, she listens and always responds with just the emotion that I want her to. And when she doesn't, it's usually because she's being a voice of reason for me. My dad is my entire foundation. He is the reason I live my life everyday. He completely keeps me in check and makes sure I am taken care of and happy. And that's more than what I could ask for. I want to be that person for my children someday.
Second, my best friends Ashley and Nicole. Where I would be without these two strong women, I do not know. Ashley and I have had it rough sometimes, but it was all a part of the learning and growing process. Right now we can't be together always. But Ashley is the kind of person that will drop everything in her life to drive two hours to my university in the middle of the night when I am breaking down. She was there for me in my darkest hour. In my moment when I could not see, she was the light that guided me. And I cannot thank her enough for that. She always knows what to say to me in any situation. She always knows what to tell me when I'm having trouble. Nicole and I have been best friends from Day 1. It didn't take much. We're just those kinds of kindred spirits that just flow. We just go together. I've never met someone in my life that I can have the BEST time with just sitting around doing absolutely nothing and then going to Sonic and driving around Covington for an hour. Those nights just always make me feel whole. She truly is my sister from another family. She was here for me when I needed her and I for her and that's the most important thing in a friendship.
Third of all are my far away friends. For some reason, some people don't consider people you meet on the Internet friends. Like they're not real people or something. But I appreciate every one of them that I have. Being far away from me gives them a different perspective on my life that is really helpful and something that I can appreciate. There are a lot of them, but there is one in particular that gives my life purpose.
Ananth has become one of the most important people in my life. A year ago, I received a message from a guy from India on my Interpals account. Usually, I would have ignored him because he didn't have a picture of himself as his default which is an immediate turn off. But there was a certain something about his personality, something really light-hearted and funny and sweet and gentle that kept me talking to him. There were times when I didn't speak at all to him, but he always kept sending me messages, I don't know what made him keep wanting to talk to me, even when I didn't write back. Eventually I added him as a friend on Facebook. And a few months later I went through the darkest time in my life. My boyfriend of two years left me and I was left with nothing. Suicidal and broken down, I was ready to just take my own life and be done with it. I was on Facebook one night and he messaged me, completely random. I didn't expect anything out of our conversation but he was really rational. He was really insightful and spoke with a lot of reason. I think it was that time that I became addicted to talking to him. The funny thing was that I didn't really even know what he looked like, but his words were so invaluable to me. We began talking everyday after that, and we exchanged pictures. I soon discovered that Ananth is just as beautiful on the outside as he is on the inside and he is such a wonderful person. He is my best male friend and I could not in all seriousness live without him. He keeps me on my feet and I cannot wait until we can have that moment together in person.
I just wanted to write about him today, because he was the only thing that made me smile today.
This week has its things to be excited about. Monday my old friend, Heath is coming over to spend the day with me and we're going to hang out for a bit. I love seeing old cohorts. Thursday night my dearest friend Wil is coming to visit from Tampa for the long weekend and is staying until Tuesday. Which is lovely. I'm really looking forward to seeing these guys.
Anyway that's all I wanted to talk about today. I might have something more interesting to say in the next couple of days. Picture is Nicole and I going to Homecoming in highschool. Thought I'd throwback to 2006 for y'all haha! I used to be skinny.
Be good everyone.
End Day 7
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