Today...I had my game face on. After a weekend of doing NOTHING and being a lazy fuck...especially after my zombie-like performance on Sunday...I was determined to get my game back. For some reason..there is something about the UL library that makes me want to be studious. It's like....a giant fortress of knowledge. First of all it's a massive building. It's like...literally...a castle. It's probably.....well no...not the biggest building we have because UL has some pretty big buildings...but this one is gorgeous. Edith Dupre Library is three floors with humongous high ceilings....a computer lab...acres of books....a spiral staircase....all these knowledge tools and now their newest installment...a cafe. I just love being there. There's something about going through those doors with a whoosh, the AC and the hush of voices and the sounds of the cafe and the blender. No one talks above a low hushed voice and everyone around you is studying. It's just a really good environment. And it smells like old books. Which is wonderful. Edith Dupre and her library MAKE me do my homework. Every finals week I go camp out in the library for hour and hours on end because it makes me study. I totally credit the fact that I passed biology Spring semester because of that library. And I spent many many hours forcing myself to pass my subjects in that library and so I decided that because I've been slacking so much I would use the library again to help me get back on my game. I knew I had a lot of homework to do so I vowed to go to the library after classes to do my homework instead of going home.
This morning I survived another French class without going insane which was good. I went to Statistics after that and I got my test back. I got a 100 on my first stat exam! I was completely blown away. That little ego-booster kind of gave me back my mojo to do what I needed to do today. I kind of smiled to myself for the rest of the day knowing that I did so well. In biology class we basically reviewed for the test and the minute I got out of that auditorium I jetted to the library. I was HELL BENT on getting my psych and bio assignments done. And I did. I just sat there and I forced myself to read and I forced myself to write and it turned out great. I had started to study for my biology exam, but my stomach started hurting again and it started to get dark so I wanted to walk home before the sun went down. I kind of live in a gated community in the middle of the ghetto and I would really rather not get killed. It's already bad enough when I'm walking home in the middle of the DAY and there are people driving down the road slowly staring at me from their window looking like they want to kill me. I swear to God if anyone ever puts a finger on me while I'm walking home I'm going to knife them. I have a pocket knife...knowing myself I will have NO problem sticking my knife in the middle of someone's forehead. Don't fucking mess with me. So I went home and just as I expected out of myself I laid in bed for three hours. Thank GOD I went to the library and did my important assignments before I came home because if I hadn't I promise they wouldn't be done now. My bed is just so comfy. So now that I know the "going to the library" method works, I'm going to do that for the rest of this week because I still have a TON of stuff that needs to be done. I'm getting nervous about my biology test. Not that I don't think I can do it...it's just nerve racking. Once you get one good grade you want to keep winning.
But as tired as I was and as achy as I was...I did make dinner for myself which is good. I've been trying to keep up this healthy eating regimen and it's been working out ok for myself. I've lost almost 20 pounds so far and that's the most I've ever done healthily in my life. So I'm kind of proud. The key is to eat little healthy things all day long instead of just one big unhealthy thing. I try to plan every meal of the day for the whole week out on a piece of paper every Sunday so I won't deviate into eating bad things. If I had a game plan it's easier to eat better than just picking something off the top of my head. I did kind of go rogue today and I got a panini at Jazzman's while I was studying. But I was REALLY hungry. I packed a cucumber sandwich for lunch which wasn't hearty enough to keep me satisfied and I was so weak and hungry by the time 3:00 rolled around and I was studying. I wouldn't have been able to concentrate if I didn't want to eat something. I think eating ham and vegetables between whole grain bread is better than eating a muffin or something anyway so I made the right choice. And instead of getting a fatty sugary coffee I just got water. That was mostly for my wallet too. I have been trying to conserve my money. I am very tired tonight though and after I finish this entry I am going to go lie in bed and try to study for my biology exam. Don't be surprised if I fall asleep though. So exhausted. Today's picture is of my winning test grade!!
End Day Twenty-Three
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