Hey guys,
I regret to inform you that this is going to be another short one. I have a better reason this time. I am really not feeling well today.
I had a pretty brutal day. Mondays and Wednesdays are the worst. That's my 3 class day and it's a lot of walking around in the heat and you're constantly on your toes. And tomorrow is my early day...8 AM biology lab. I haven't really been feeling well since I got home.
I have frequent chest pains and heart palpitations that go on for hours. Sometimes I even pass out. Well when I got home my heart started racing. It feels like...my heart is in my throat. And instead of beating normally like ba bum ba bum ba bum....it's go like this: ba bum ba bum ba......bum. Like a lag. And I've heard this being called something like "heart block" by a doctor but I haven't gotten any treatment for anything. I really really need to go see my doctor about this...I just hate to ask my parents to bring me because I've had so many other medical problems. I can feel my pulse really violently at first and I can feel the skipped beats and the lag and it makes me feel horrible and I can't breathe. Now, the palpitations are a little better, but I still cannot breathe well. I have chest pains and I just feel sick.
Another reason I just don't want to go to the doctor is because I'm afraid of what they'll say. What if they tell me I'm dying? What if they need to do surgery? What if the tests will hurt me? I'm very scared. But this pain and this problem is becoming entirely too much to deal with. But I probably won't go to the doctor for this. I just can't. I'm too scared.
I'd rather die in my bed than on a surgical table under a doctor's knife.
I don't care if that's dramatic. It's the truth.
I really have to sleep now.
I will talk to you guys soon.
End Day 11
Let me just say that you dying is NOT an option. The longer you wait the more serious the issue can get. What may be able to fix with respiratory therapy and/or medication may very well turn in to surgery or fatal issue. It's okay to be scared (I'd be worried about you if you weren't) but don't let it consume you.
ReplyDeleteThey might be panic attacks, possibly brought on by stress or other factors. And they aren't necessarily brought on by stress and can come out of the blue for no reason. I'm rather well-versed in this subject, if you have any questions.
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